No one could ever replace you.
I wish things could of gone our way and I that could have grown up with you by my side. I always think back and remember, you've never left my system for some reason. I would call it love but I'm too afraid, It would be unrequited wouldn't it? I don't think being sentimental like this is good for me or for any male in particular.
I still remember the first time you smiled at me, it was the first day of school, I couldn't forget it even if i tried. I remember how you even tied your hair that day, two pony tails. You gave me all the time in the world to splurged out my feelings for you but in the end you beat me to it after 2 years, haha that still makes me smile every-time i think about it because you said " I had to tell you first ". I guess you got tired of waiting? or that you pretty much were caught red handed by me the previous night because you were drunk on the phone and blabbed everything out.
It took us so long to get up to that stage, I'm sorry for all the rough patches in between, things like other girlfriends or vise versa for you. Or Me being too stubborn and proud to apologise soon after a verbal arguement. Do you remember how it took me 1 term to apologise..? I regret it so much.
I often think back and think of ways of how I could of done things differently. No mistakes, No arguments, no pain. My conclusion as to why things fucked up is that I loved you too much. So much that I didn't know how to handle it, so much that it caused me to only feed my need to be beside you and not see what I was doing to you. I seriously do feel like an idiot everytime I think about it; Including all the tears and trouble I caused you after it ended, I should'nt of listened to my friend's advice when he said that you would come back if I fought for you. I was heartbroken and grabbed on to any glimpse of hope I could find, I'm sorry please don't hate me because of it.
Right now I realise that it was better that all of this happened rather then if I spent the rest of my life just wondering about what we would be like if we were together.
You're still the most beautiful girl in the world to me. You still make me smile when I think about you and all the good times we had.
Don't see this as an act for me to win you back, I would never ask that of you, not again. This is just what crosses my mind every-time I think about you. I'm glad to have had you in my life as someone once very close to me. You've given me a-lot of memories to look back and smile on, that's all I have left of us now.
It's been a little over two years since that heart breaking day, and still you cross my mind every now and then. I have to say that, I still miss you.
I wish things could of gone our way and I that could have grown up with you by my side. I always think back and remember, you've never left my system for some reason. I would call it love but I'm too afraid, It would be unrequited wouldn't it? I don't think being sentimental like this is good for me or for any male in particular.
I still remember the first time you smiled at me, it was the first day of school, I couldn't forget it even if i tried. I remember how you even tied your hair that day, two pony tails. You gave me all the time in the world to splurged out my feelings for you but in the end you beat me to it after 2 years, haha that still makes me smile every-time i think about it because you said " I had to tell you first ". I guess you got tired of waiting? or that you pretty much were caught red handed by me the previous night because you were drunk on the phone and blabbed everything out.
It took us so long to get up to that stage, I'm sorry for all the rough patches in between, things like other girlfriends or vise versa for you. Or Me being too stubborn and proud to apologise soon after a verbal arguement. Do you remember how it took me 1 term to apologise..? I regret it so much.
I often think back and think of ways of how I could of done things differently. No mistakes, No arguments, no pain. My conclusion as to why things fucked up is that I loved you too much. So much that I didn't know how to handle it, so much that it caused me to only feed my need to be beside you and not see what I was doing to you. I seriously do feel like an idiot everytime I think about it; Including all the tears and trouble I caused you after it ended, I should'nt of listened to my friend's advice when he said that you would come back if I fought for you. I was heartbroken and grabbed on to any glimpse of hope I could find, I'm sorry please don't hate me because of it.
Right now I realise that it was better that all of this happened rather then if I spent the rest of my life just wondering about what we would be like if we were together.
You're still the most beautiful girl in the world to me. You still make me smile when I think about you and all the good times we had.
Don't see this as an act for me to win you back, I would never ask that of you, not again. This is just what crosses my mind every-time I think about you. I'm glad to have had you in my life as someone once very close to me. You've given me a-lot of memories to look back and smile on, that's all I have left of us now.
It's been a little over two years since that heart breaking day, and still you cross my mind every now and then. I have to say that, I still miss you.
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